Nichole Noelle’s Story
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Precious Moments - Jesus is the Light
It is with great sadness I am publishing this post.
Monday afternoon March 23, at 17 weeks along, my water broke. After being rushed to the ER, to our Baby Dr and back to the Hospital to be admitted, we learned that with my water breaking, the baby had lost all of the amniotic fluid the baby needs to be in to develop. Also, the risk of infection was very high for me with the cervix having an opening – and that meant infections were going right to my bloodstream and I had a high risk of developing septic shock which can be fatal.
With labour induced, I delivered a little girl – Nichole Noelle who is 5 ounces and 7 inches long. Although Nikki had a heartbeat for a few times while I held her, her lungs and organs were not developed enough to survive. At 17 weeks, she was way to small even for the medical equipment to keep her alive and to let her grow. (Most premie medical equipment is for babies 24 weeks and larger)
We held Nikki for a long while, cried, told her how much we loved her, and said our goodbyes. This perfect little baby girl we had come so much to love – Nichole Noelle – was going to heaven to live.
The hospital took pictures of Nikki in her little sundress with her blanket. We will be receiving those at the end of the week. Her little sundress looks like it fits on a baby doll it is so tiny. Along with her sundress and blanket, the hospital gave us a gift basket with Nikki’s hat, certificate with her hand and footprints and a few other items for us to have and cherish.
A local Mortuary - Freeman Mortuary in Jefferson City – has donated their services for babies such as this who do not survive. They will be cremating Nikki and returning her ashes to us.
We purchased a very special Precious Moments Porcelain Figurine to keep her ashes in. Jesus is the Light. Godspeed Nikki, We love you!
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You can help more places have these donations. See the FAQ page to see how to get Hobby Lobby Gift Cards or a Michaels Gift Cards.
Alternatively, if you have an idea where I can donate some to – let me know also! You can contact me either way by going to the Contact Page
If you would like to send a Hobby Lobby Gift Cards or Michael’s Gift Card to help me make more arts in Nikki’s Name, My address is
Erica St. John
12 F Street
Holts Summit, MO 65043
I can be reached at 913-221-5510
Please don’t hesitate to call me if you have any questions or suggestions of people who can use these crafts to help them feel better.
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Nikki I wish I could have spent more time with you but I guess that was supposed to be. I think of you and love you everyday. You are in heaven now where others an take care of you. I will see you one day and never forget you
Love, your mom
Sweetheart, you are not alone. May God bless you as you deal with your loss. Be sure to let that son know how important he is in your life. You will never forget, but it will get easier.
Thank you so much Laura. Your words are comforting and I guess I am just taking longer to get over this. In a way the arts and crafts I do in Niki’s name are an emotional attachment for me.
Erica,
My prayers are with your family. The loss of a child is a terrible loss, 17 weeks or 36 years. Your craft gifts will help you as you are finding out. Give yourself time. The grief never goes away but you can function better as time goes on.
I expect Kathy holds Nichole close to her heart for you often, and tells her what a great mother she has on earth.
God bless.
Yvonne McCord
Yvonne thank you so much. Just reading that brought tears to my eyes and made me feel better. I Am sure Kathy will take great care of her in Heaven until we meet again. That is comforting to me.
I guess I have more of an emotional attachment to my arts and crafts to Nikki than I thought I did, and I am slowly learning that. It does seem to help the hurt ease some. Time will tell
Than you for your comment, it was a great comment to wake to.
We are so sad to hear of your loss. When my wife and I were much younger and after our third child, my lovely wife had a miscarry at about 10 weeks. I did not truly understand her pain until we lost a grand daughter at two yeas of age due to SIDS in our home. We went to Compassionate Friends for healing. During the group sessions, only then did I truly understand my wifes pain many years ago.
Thank you much Denny. My husband is grieving too, but I still cant seem to get over it after 2 months, That is why I throw myself into these arts and crafts – it is an emotional attachment for me. My husband goes to therapy and all Dr appointments with me, I just have to remind myself he grieves different than I do – male vs female thing. Best of wishes to you and your wife and if you will send me your address in email I would like to send you something for your encouragement,
I am deeply saddened to learn of the passing of your lovely daughter Nikki and empathise with you and your family in your loss and grief.
I lost two of my daughters aged 1 and 3 days respectively and although the memories never fade, in time the pain will lessen for you. May the Lord keep you all safe in the palm of His hand and may each of you grow in strength.
Always remember the love, joy and light that Nikki brought into your lives even though it was for such a brief moment.
Thank you Rhonda. Each day is getting better and my arts and crafts seem to help me http://ericasartsandcrafts.com/ I guess it is my emotional connection to Nikki and ir seems to being happiness to others. I just hope I can keep it going! Things are hard with me out of work and my husband out of work to take care of me. I just believe in faith and Nikki is now healthy and growing up loved.
I join told all above.
Erica, my prayers are with you and your family. I lost my Mom in Mei of 2007 and it is the hardest thing I have yet faced…. I am so sorry Erica. God will see you all through this I know… She is with Him now. May god bless you and family….
Thank you so much. It has gotten easier, but it will never be the same. I leave it to him to let our lives be as they are meant to be. It happened for a reason and I cannot see the big picture so I will wait to see what happens.
Sorry for your loss as well